Today marks 18 years since the birth of my son, Dominic Fulton. Dominic was only physically with us for 4 1/2 short months, but he left a legacy that continues to live on. Not a day goes by that I do not think of him. Tragically and suddenly, Dominic died from SIDS on August 9, 2000 – a day etched in my heart and memory forever. Dominic was pure, innocent joy . He was my second born and daily filled my heart with overflowing love.
Dominic was a happy, healthy baby and his sudden loss, carved a deep wound in my heart that only God could fill and in His time, use for His glory.
Dominic’s story can be found in the book Amazing Grace For Mothers, published by Ascension Press. To order, click here:
Here is an excerpt from the book:
Wednesday, August 9 – “Dominic becomes a SAINT! Our baby goes back to the Lord!”
Wednesday, August 16 – “One week ago today, the angels came and took my little Dominic to see Jesus. He is a saint now. He died suddenly of Sudden Infant Death Syndrome. My heart aches so much. I have never felt so much pain in all of my life. I love being a mother and I loved my little Dominic more than words can express. I am still in shock, like maybe he is coming back; maybe he did not really die. It has not all quite registered. The pain is so deep, I cry often. I miss him terribly! It is hard to believe that this all happened – it was so sudden. I would give anything to have him back. So many things remind me of him: his favorite toys, the smell of baby shampoo, his clothes that are still in the laundry basket, certain lullabies that I sang to him, plans that we had, etc. Please God help me! I hurt so much inside. I give my pain to you. Saint Dominic, intercede for us all! In one night, my whole life was turned upside down. My heart feels so empty; my breasts want to nurse. I have milk coming in, but no baby to feed. This is a harsh reminder to me and especially difficult. I want to forget this all happened and have Dominic back. He was such a good baby. He brought me so much joy. That joy is gone now and it is hard to imagine ever being that happy again.”
“I was now in unchartered waters. The journey of loss is so painful that it has the power to either destroy you or completely transform you. I knew in my heart, by the very gift of faith that had been given to me, that somehow I had to let Dominic’s death transform me. I believe the transformation began the night Dominic died…………….”
“When the nurse placed Dominic’s lifeless body in my arms that night, I felt a unique closeness with Our Blessed Mother. She knew the pain, the anguish, the feeling of loss. I thought of that holy image, the Pieta, with our Lady holding her lifeless Son, Our Savior, in her arms. From that moment on, I knew that my life would be forever changed, and that Dominic was now in heaven. According to Church teaching, he was now a saint.”
By the grace of God, the profound pain from Dominic’s loss, sourced from my unfathomable love for his precious life, has truly transformed me over the last 18 years . Pain has the power to change us for good, or destroy us – the decision of what path we allow the pain to take us on, lies in our hands. I am grateful for the gift of my faith that allowed me to see clearly amidst the agony and tears, to surrender to God’s will and choose the life giving path.
Dominic lives on in me and how I daily choose to live my life for Christ. I have a son in Heaven interceding for myself and my family -an incredible gift – Saint Dominic!
Dominic also lives on in all those who knew and loved him. His short life touched many hearts and his spiritual presence can now be felt. He left a legacy – a legacy of authentic love.
St. Dominic Fulton – Pray for Us!